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@loeys.hugs shares: ✨On trust after loss✨ _ I realise that I don’t trust most times I don’t trust that things will be okay I don’t trust that good things always happen to good people I don’t trust that my dreams will come true I don’t trust people I don’t trust situations AND I just don’t trust life This doesn’t happen all the time But Today it is _ Is this trust or is this the fact that I now know that life doesn’t make sense that life is full of uncertainties that rather than trust I am full of anger and frustration _ So please put away your manifesting your life BS Put away your take responsibility Put away your trust in the universe because today I am finding it incredibly hard to trust AND I know that it’s okay Because my grief Shows up in distrust _ To all the families who aren’t trusting today: I know that a few days ago I did trust but today I don’t and maybe I will tomorrow? How do you feel about trust after loss? _ #IHadAMiscarriage #stillbirth #stillborn #bornstill #grief #loss #lifeafterloss #trustafterloss #1in160

She finally came to me in a dream. I’ve waited and waited for this. In the earlier days, I begged her as I closed my eyes, night after night. She must have known I wasn’t ready, that the timing wasn’t right. That back then, to dream of her would be torturous, not healing. That I wouldn’t be able to see past the grief and into the gift. But as she always does, she came to me at the perfect hour. • The dream. In the early hours of the morning, she was here. Snuggled into bed with us. We were aware that she was not really here, not really alive, but she wiggled and opened her eyes, the softest of blues, and looked right into mine. I laid her on my chest, skin to skin, the thing I didn’t do in the hospital that I regret the most. Her cheek pressed against me, I felt the weight of her on my body. 8 pounds, 3 ounces, anchoring me and rooting me in that moment. I tilted my chin down and rubbed my nose into her hair, one hand on her back and the other gently draped over the back of her head. Eddie watched us and smiled. We were painfully aware that it was our final day with her. But there was much less sadness than that last day in the hospital. We knew, within my dream, that these moments were a gift from Marie, meant to be experienced and remembered. • It feels in my heart as if this truly happened. Like she was really in our bed, in my arms, existing in the ethereal way that she does. Like a memory experienced between this world and another, but experienced nonetheless. She was here. She is here. • I told Eddie I believe she really came to me, telling him that I know he doesn’t really believe in that stuff, but that I do. His response: “Dreams are very interesting. Truth is only our understanding of it. What would be different if she truly was in your arms? You would have seen and felt all the same things so why is it different?” • He’s not asking for an answer. He’s just getting me to think, like he always does. Encouraging me to accept the gifts when they come, when so many boxes in my life feel empty. • I accept the gift, baby girl.

2 Months Old. Going through the days without you have been so tough on your Dad and I. I hope we are making you as proud as you make us. We love you baby, and miss you every second ♥️ . . . #childloss #infantloss #knoxdaniel #stillborn #stillbirth #stillbornatillloved #fullterm #1in160 #missyou #myboy #grief #twomonths

Some days I just miss you extra Calvin Thomas

I hesitate to share her, because I’m afraid of the day that I run out of photos. The memory pool is so physically shallow, and so emotionally deep. Two days to get to know what grew for 9 months. This might as well have been yesterday. I don’t miss her any less with time. I miss her more and more as the reality of her absence continues to set in. As I continue living and making memories that don’t include her here in my arms or strapped to my chest or swinging from my arm in her car seat. I never knew you could miss something you never had, until I lost my child. I never knew a lot of things. If only we could learn without having to lose. If only.

The quote above is very true. I don't share my way about wanting another kid because I’m an oversharing woman. But, unfortunately, in today's world, they are so taboo (stillbirth, miscarriage) that they have to be talked about. It’s not a topic you discuss at a brunch table, still very important one. And if there is only 1 person on the world who feels a little better after my post, it's worth it. I envy those women who feel the whole pregnancy the most wonderful thing in the world. But not everyone’s lucky as they are. There are women who have 9 dreadful months because of the shadow of the past. I'm sorry if I am not just posting about the unicorn puke fake reality and it hurts your soul. But I can do a very good solution for you: scroll further or unfollow. These things happen even if you turn your head away. I would have liked to have these things never happened to us. But without them I wouldn't be the one I am today. #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #stillbirth #stillloved #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #stillbirthawareness #1in4 #1in160 #angelmommy #angeldaddy #grieving #grievingmother #grief #support #babyloss #babylossawareness #motherhoodthroughletterboards #thelettergrams #journeytogivebeniasibling #facelessweek_nio

Yesterday was #nationaldaughterday and I had debated posting about our sweet Liana Isabelle but wasn’t sure since we are obviously so limited on our pictures of her and didn’t want to make others sad. This is our daughter. We miss her every single day. We would’ve given anything to have her here to test our patience, to sleep deprive us, to make us laugh and smile, make us worry, to scream her head off in public, to make unimaginable messes, to make us question our sanity. Though our loss has forever changed us and our grief will never truly end, only dull the sting over time, we choose to see that change as one for the better. We take nothing for granted. We appreciate everything in a new light. We show our love more often and more freely. We have a new perspective on our priorities in this life. Our faith and our love for the Lord and His promises have been strengthened. We look to the future with hope even though it is still with some apprehension. My daughter has shown me that I can withstand immense pain, both physically and emotionally. She has shown me that I can yet love her father more and more each passing day. She will always be on my mind and I will never feel like I have enough reminders of her or that I have done enough in her memory, but I pray that if nothing else I can at least help others through their grief in the knowledge that they are not alone. We are the 1 in 160 that suffer from stillbirths. The 1 in 4 that suffer from pregnancy loss. The pain runs deep and is constant but I will not let it stop me from loving and from living ❤️ #stillborn #stillbornstillloved #stillbirth #stillbirthawareness #1in4 #1in160 #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #pregnancyloss #childloss #angelbaby #hopemommies

@racheldarlin shares: My whole pregnancy I couldn't wait to have my perfect birth pictures so I could share them with the world. On March 3rd my son's heart stopped beating. After 30 hours of excruciating unmedicated induced labor, my sweet boy was brought earth side. Everything I went through immediately became so worth it. This picture was taken just seconds after seeing his beautiful face for the first time. I have never known a love like that. I have never wanted to keep anyone so badly in my life. I would relive the pain of that day every day for the rest of my life just to be with him again. _ #IHadAMiscarriage #stillbirth #loss #grief #infantloss #1in160 #lossmom #motherhood #miscarriage #pregnancyloss // Story found via @carriagehousebirth.

In honour of Ben . . . . . . . #pailawareness #stillbirthawareness #stillbirth #infantloss #babyloss #1in4 #1in160 #itsokaytonotbeokay