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Bringing Maximus Home I still can't believe it's been 4 weeks since we brought our son home. Finally we were leaving the hospital WITH an actual baby, instead of a small memory box with hand and foot prints of our last 2 babies. The last few weeks have been so surreal, I find myself closing my eyes and opening them again expecting to see an empty cot, but this time around things are so different, our son is home with us and he has brought so much joy, love and peace into our hearts. My journey to motherhood was not smooth, nor was it easy and alot of the time was and still is at times painful. I still think about my first 2 babies and miss them so much. Maxi's coming home outfit says, 'I have two brothers in heaven looking out for me'. He sure does. #rainbowbaby #maximusbonful #iam1in4 #miscarriage #stillbirth #pregnancyafterloss #breakingthesilence #mumssupportingmums #lifeafterloss #griefwithsupport #babylossawareness #rememberingangelbabies #angelmummy #stillbornstillloved

I often catch myself feeling guilty for smiling, laughing or having a good time. How can I do so when my heart is so broken? Then I remind myself that I need it. I need a good old laugh to get rid of all the bad feelings, the sadness. It’s my brain’s way of giving me a break from the heartache. It’s my rest from the pain. I then try and block the guilt. I block the voice saying that I shouldn’t smile. It goes away until next time. Just because we’re smiling, it doesn’t mean that we’re not hurting so much inside. It doesn’t mean that our hearts are not broken. Smiling is a sign of strenght, not a weakness. . . . . . . #babyloss #rainbowbaby #babylossawareness #babylosssupport #parentingafterloss #angelmummy #angelbaby #myfamily #family #smile

I cant believe its been 6 months since we said our goodbyes. You will never understand how much i love and miss you #harrisonHassall #babylossmom #babylossawareness #babylosscommunity #borntofly #1in4 #neonatebabies #babysinheaven #lovedonesinheaven #borntofly #mumlife #mumbloggers #bereavedparent #greivingmother #harrisonshope #neonataldeath #NICU #angelbabies #nicuawarenessmonth #teddybear #infantloss #littleman #bluehearts4harrison #angelmummy

| EMPTINESS | ⠀ ⠀ I don’t know how I survived your birth, your funeral or the months that followed. I felt like a hollow tree, my life essence had dried to dust and blown away with the wind. I was so shocked that you had died, I struggled to find my way back to reality. And I didn’t want to live that reality - my life seemed pointless without you in it. Surely there had been a mistake, I’d rather you had lived instead of me. To anyone reading this who has recently experienced the loss of your beautiful baby - I see you and feel your pain. I encourage you to join a bereaved parents group or to see a psychologist to help you deal with the intense grief, trauma and pain that follows baby loss. It may sound cliché, but the horrible feeling of emptiness will heal over time - never completely, but it does get better. Although it didn’t feel like it was possible during those awful months - I survived and so can you... .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ ⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #emptiness #sadness #sorrow #grief #askforhelp #babylosssupport #stillbirthsupport #pregnancylosssupport #bereavedmother #bereavedparents #mommytoanangel #angelmom #angeldad #angelmummy #support #supportgroup #takecareofyourself #stillborn #stillbirth #stillbirthbreakthesilence #stillbirthawareness #survivor #stillbirthsurvivor ⠀

On 30th May 2019 I gave birth to my beautiful daughter Aurelia India. She was born sleeping and my heart has truly never known such pain. Saying goodbye has been by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I have set up a blog in her name, not only to honour her existence, but to raise awareness and break the silence surrounding #babyloss and #stillbirth. If I can help even one person feel less alone on this painful journey, then I have accomplished what I set out to do, and what I believe was Aurelia’s Wish Link is in the bio, please help me spread the word Photography by the beautiful soul that is @fionanormanphotography through the incredible charity @remembermybaby. #stillborn #stillbornstillloved #stillbirth #stillbirthawareness #sands #findyourway #findyourway2019 #babyloss #pregnancyloss #1in4 #stillamama #stillamother #tommyscharity #angelmummy #breakthesilence #sids #saytheirnames #AureliaIndia

| TUCKING YOU IN | 29.04.17 |⠀ ⠀ When you returned to the hospital from your autopsy Mummy & Daddy were able to “tuck you in” to your forever crib. It’s a phrase we learnt from our social worker - it was nice to be able to say those words rather than “putting our baby in a coffin”. ⠀ ⠀ This was the last time Mummy & Daddy got to see your beautiful face. The last time we got to kiss your sweet little lips. It was so hard knowing we would never see you again. How we ever survived that day, I’m not sure.⠀ ⠀ This has been the hardest photo to post to date, because it evokes such intense sadness in me when I look at it. But it’s part of Beau’s story and sadly every still parent’s reality...⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ ⚰️⚰️⚰️⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #heartbroken #heartbreak #sadness #grief #griefsupport #griefandloss #griefjourney #stillbirth #stillbirthawareness #stillbornstillloved #stillborn #saytheirnames #angelbaby #angelmummy #mommytoanangel #angeldad #daddysangel #heavenbound #babybeau #beautifulbaby #babyboy #foreveryoung #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #babyloss #babylossawareness #babylosssupport

| TEARS IN HEAVEN | 01.05.17 |⠀ ⠀ I’ve always felt the emotion behind Eric Clapton’s voice when he sings “Tears in Heaven”. How heartbreaking to lose your 4 year old son in such a terrible accident. Those poor parents. ⠀ ⠀ Never in a million years did I think I would be playing it at my son’s funeral. But when it came time to pick the songs for your funeral, Daddy & I both agreed this song was appropriate. ⠀ ⠀ We also played Sarah McLachlan’s “Angel” at your funeral. I would replay it over and over again at home because it touched me so deeply. Those were the days when I could barely get out of bed because my grief was so intense. ⠀ ⠀ Thankfully, “Angel” doesn’t get played on the radio so I never get caught out in public. But “Tears in Heaven” does - and each time it plays, my heart stops. Sometimes I sob uncontrollably, especially when I hear the lyrics “would you know my name, if I saw you in Heaven?”. ⠀ ⠀ Sometimes it’s just a few silent tears, spilling down my cheeks. ⠀ ⠀ Sometimes I play these songs at home, where I am safe, just so I can feel connected to you again... ⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ ⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #tearsinheaven #ericclapton #angel #sarahmclachlan #grief #sadness #funeral #funeralservice #angelbaby #angelmummy #daddysangel #babybeau #lyrics #missingyou #lovingyou #stillbornstillloved #stillbirthawareness #stillbirth #babyloss #babylossawareness #babylosssupport #love #memories ⠀ ⠀

. . I woke up with a heavy heart this morning. I miss my little girl so much. Today, it got too much for me and I cried. Something I haven't properly been able to do for weeks. I thought all my tears had dried up or been all used up. But no, they appeared like fast flowing droplets whilst I sat beside her grave with Jacob, and during a conversation with my family. . I miss you, Pop-Pop. And so does Daddy & Jacob. . ❤️❤️❤️❤️ .

I’d love to share what I wrote for Layla’s funeral If I wrote a book about our precious little Layla it would never come to an end. She may only be little but she has the biggest heart and only knew of love. She was born weighing a perfect 7lb 1oz and every single ounce, I loved. From the top of her head where her beautiful fine brown hair fell, to the tips of her toes to where the most perfectly formed toenails were. I knew in that very moment that there is nobody else in this whole wide world I could possibly love more than I love this little girl. Bringing our daughter into this world was the most magical moment of my life, I couldn’t believe I wasn’t dreaming. I stared in awe at the most perfect human being Nathan and I had created. She is perfect, everything about her is perfect. We made so many memories with Layla in such a short amount of time. People say it can take several weeks for babies to show their personality’s but not for Layla, her personality and smile shone through instantly. She had us in fits of laughter since day one, over something as simple as crying in the middle of Sainsbury’s and then falling asleep mid cry with her mouth wide open, to pulling the funniest faces and wriggling around whilst we were trying to change her. We loved showing her off to the world. The proud moments we shared when family and friends met her for the first time. We took her into town to get her registered. Grabbed lunch at our favourite coffee shop. Had to buy some smaller baby grows as all of the clothes we had were miles too big for her, and not to mention the arguments Nathan and I had over who would push the pushchair for the rest of the day! You are so loved little one, more than you will ever know. You’ve made more of an impact in the 5 days you were with us, than most people can dream of making in a lifetime. We thank God every single day that we got to experience a little bit of heaven when we met you. Our beautiful precious daughter, Layla Rosemary Payne, we will always carry you, for the rest of our lives. So for now it is the hardest goodbye sweetheart, but I promise that we will see you again and hold you once more. Mummy and Daddy love you!