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When I had a miscarriage last year I was shocked, in disbelief — totally in denial. I realized in a Chuck E. Cheese bathroom, surrounded by chaos and kids, and I immediately wanted to forget it ever happened.
From there came the guilt of not acknowledging that child in order to guard my heart. I knew deep down I was worried I wouldn’t ever try for another if I faced what had occurred.
One year and five months later, I’m sitting beside Charlie as he sleeps and I finally know everything is going to be okay. It wasn’t the easiest ride to get here, but he’s every bit worth it to me. #rainbowbaby #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage
Getting a little personal here If you’ve followed me long or know me personally, you know I am a pretty open book when it comes to talking about my struggle with infertility & miscarriages. So because of that, I think sometimes people want to be sensitive to that, (which i am so grateful for) and it’s probably sometimes uncomfortable to ask me to make baby shower/baby name tags etc for them. I just want to set the record straight- I really do love what I do and making all things baby! Baby name tags are, and probably always will be my most favorite thing to make! And as cheesy as this may be, I truly feel honored that I get to play a small roll in the announcements of your perfect Littles ones! Especially in the case of @iam.herstory & her sweet rainbow baby Elsie (Is she not the sweetest thing you’ve ever seen?!)
When I started Calli + Oak it was to help pay for a chance to become a mom, whether through adoption or fertility treatments (because it is not cheap!) so, whenever you putchase anything from me, (including all things baby haha) it helps me get a little closer to my goal of hopefully becoming a mom myself one day. So thank you from the bottom of my heart! And please don’t ever feel uncomfortable because I really love making things for you guys!❤️ Huge congrats mama @iam.herstory Elsie is PERFECTION!
After every storm there is a rainbow... Baby Robyn Pearl Mitchell is our precious rainbow . Thank you so much to @individual_photo for producing these precious moments in time for us ❤️
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16 weeks and visiting the baby buffalo with my sweet little animal lover!! This pregnancy has given me a run for my money. The first trimester was rough, to say the least. On top of my normal pregnancy nausea and tiredness, I had excess bleeding from my Crohn’s disease, headaches and other symptoms from my pituitary adenoma...amongst other things basically it drained me and it was all I could do to keep myself and my kids alive and fed #thankyousuperfoodshakes
Let’s just say that even though I have a pile of health issues I’m still sorting through, the 2nd trimester has brought me MUCH more energy and much less nausea
You’ll be seeing more posts from me again as me I jump back into my normal health and fitness routine and me and my cute fam start enjoying summer ☀️ My summer Fit Club is kicking off MONDAY JUNE 3RD. Discounted enrollment runs through Monday. LMK if you want me and my amazing team to help you crush your summer goals
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I know many of you know this bandaid on the belly all too well. The amniocentesis. The needle into amniotic fluid that is supposed to promise answers. Answers that we never got. This was the day we found out that Liam was dead.
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5 days earlier we got the news we’d be fearing for 5 months. At my morphology scan, our OB held back tears as she reluctantly laid out Liam’s diagnosis.
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She told us that he was measuring small just like his big brother. That there was something wrong with his heart, liver and kidneys, just like his big brother. That he was likely to die, just like his big brother.
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Just 3 weeks earlier we had a healthy, thriving baby. So this news came as a cold shock. But we continued to hold onto hope. He still had a heartbeat. To us, that meant hope.
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This was just before the Easter long weekend, so we couldn’t get back in for further testing until 5 days later. My amnio was booked in first thing Tuesday Morning.
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Toby and I had made the decision that despite Liam’s diagnosis, we would continue on with the pregnancy for as long as we could. We were better equiped to deal with whatever they doctors were about to tell us, we had a wealth of knowledge behind us, having lived through this heartache only 9 months earlier. We wanted to prove the doctors wrong and give our little man a fighting chance. We were hoping for a miracle.
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I laid on the bed and they prepared the needle to extract the fluid. The doctor waved the ultrasound wand over my round 20 week belly and we stared at the screen.
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There was no movement. I closed my eyes before she spoke. I tried to take my mind as far out of that dark room as possible. She offered out her hand and spoke those words no parent wants to hear. ‘I’m so sorry, there is no heartbeat.’
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History was repeating itself. Our second baby, was gone.
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My heart was broken beyond words. But I was angry. Angry that we were denied the opportunity to give Liam the fighting chance he deserved. Angry that he died sometime over that Easter weekend and I couldn’t do anything to save him.
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They continued on with the procedure as I laid on the bed drowning in my own tears, the reality had set it. My rainbow baby, was gone.
31 weeks with our boy and we just can’t wait for him to arrive Every time I think about his birth, I start crying because I’m just SO excited to hold him and love on our precious rainbow baby. I love being pregnant—the bond that gets created during these 9 months of gestation is indescribable. Although pregnancy is its own kind of amazing, I am actually bursting at the excitement of seeing Dylan and Emily hold Thomas! Maybe that’s why my belly button is poppin so much .
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