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Hi everyone my name is Kaiden Earl Jonassen. I was born Tuesday June 4th at 12:54am, weighing 7lbs 8oz and measuring 19 3/4 inches long.

15 weeks 1 day ⠀ ⠀ B A B Y... we can do this.⠀ ⠀ Today’s appointment with maternal fetal medicine was... intense. Intense in the sense that we fully reviewed my novel length history. 8 pregnancies - 2 full term healthy babes, 2 early miscarriages, 3 fetal demises.⠀ ⠀ Fetal demise... I f*#%ing hate that term. Let’s just get that out there. 2 early losses and 3 babes where I had to be induced and give labour. 3 little tinies I’ve held in my hands breathless.⠀ ⠀ We are in the throes of parental genetic screening, numerous ultrasounds, fetal echos, and ECGs. They found a “spelling mistake” in a specific gene in Jordan’s testings and they are checking to see if we are carriers of this genetic error, or if hers “just happened”. This genetic error potentially has some pretty serious implications when it comes to the heart, so this could be interesting.⠀ ⠀ But so far... this little bean looks good. And we continue to pray this will be the case for the next 5 weeks and beyond ⠀ ⠀ Thank you for keeping us in your prayers. We need it. Every good vibe, every utterance of a prayer, we need it.⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #pregnancyafterloss⠀ #lifeafterloss #miscarriagesupport #parentingafterloss #mamagrief #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #recurrentmiscarriage #ihadamiscarriage #giftswithmeaning #handcraftedwithheavenbabiesinmind #communityovercompetition #grievingmother #stillbornstillloved #stillbirthawareness #bereavedmother #saytheirnames #griefjourney #griefsupport #honestmotherhood #motherhoodrising #holdthemoments #thesincerestoryteller #storytellingmama #theheartcaptured #littlepiecesofchildhood #risingstrong⠀ ⠀ ⠀

Hey guys, it’s been a while! We are on vacation with family this week, so I’ve been away from my phone most of the time. I wanted to stop in and give you guys an update on the shop. I will be re-opening Monday, June 10th with ready to ship items. **Tell me below the time you want me to open and I will pick a random person to receive $5 off their order.** I am also planning an imperfects Sale. Tell me your date and time suggestions for that as well. @candacewoesch . Ready to ship items will be mostly mama shirts and banners, but there will be a few baby and toddler items. . . . #rainbowafterthestorm #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #rainbowbaby #rainbow #shopsmall #supportsmallbusiness #rainbowmamababy #rainbowmama

After many months of excitement, anticipation and planning, I’m so happy to finally hold you in my arms. My heart is SO full. I’ve never known this kind of love. You are everything to me and I can’t wait to see who you’ll become. @cfdougherty can you believe it? We’re parents! Thank you for being such an amazing husband and the best support system. I love you ❤️

Me and the best thing that has ever happened to me

The Friday before Mother’s Day I had my blood drawn to check my hCG and progesterone after our letrozole cycle. When I was finished I wished the phlebotomist a Happy Mother’s Day. She replied, “Oh...I can’t say that to you.” I looked down and smiled as I contemplated if I should tell her that I have had two angel babies so she was welcome to.But I left it alone and walked to my car thinking about our miscarriages and the comments that I’ve heard about them. ⠀⠀ “Your first miscarriage wasn’t a baby.” “Your baby was just a lump of tissue.” “You’re not a mother.” ⠀⠀ Two years ago today we lost our first pregnancy.(May 25,2017) I had never been through anything so physically and emotionally traumatic until that night. At 8 weeks pregnant my body had contractions to get rid of the pregnancy. I was crying, screaming, and throwing up from the pain. It lasted for hours. My husband rubbed my back and tried to comfort me. My little dog sat in the corner of our room shaking in fear while he watched. ⠀⠀ Yet, I have heard that I have nothing to grieve with this loss since it was a blighted ovum. ⠀⠀ No. Just no. ⠀⠀ That night two years ago was not for nothing. Our first ever pregnancy after years of infertility and five fertility treatments was not for nothing. Our baby might not be recognized by some as a baby. But for us it is. We became parents the moment we saw our positive pregnancy test. ⠀⠀ Not everyone will understand the agony of pregnancy loss. I am here to tell you that your loss matters. Your child matters. Your heartache matters. Your lost dreams matter. You matter. You are still a mother when you lose a child. Don’t let someone make you believe otherwise.❤️

Always #harrysbutterfly #ectopicpregnancy #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #babyloss #infantloss #baby

Not leaving this hospital without a baby. The induction process has officially started. My bishop score was a 5, not bad but not great. Also not surprising since we are inducing and my body didn’t just go into labor. I was however 1 cm dilated and 50% effaced so I feel a lot better knowing I was somewhat making progress before this induction process. My doctor and nurse both told me to get comfortable as it’s going to be a long boring day. Keep me in your thoughts, maybe I’ll shock everyone and have him later tonight

last week we got some updated blood work on my hormone and stress levels. i’d spent the last six months learning, educating myself, changing my diet, removing toxins, all of it. i can’t reiterate enough how radical and all encompassing my commitment to these changes has been. . my blood work indicated subtle shifts in the right direction, but also very very *very* high stress levels still. the stress being the main source of my imbalances, this wasn’t ideal news. . looking back on that moment, and still in the week that followed, i did not feel defeated. . my focus stayed on the numbers that had subtlety shifted towards balance. i stared at those changes, however small, and whispered, . i did that. . what an empowering and terrifying thing to realize we get to participate in our healing. it seems, for me at least, some healing will not arrive if i will not change and work to welcome it. . the woman in this photo is so powerful. some days i feel very far from her, but she is still a part of me. and that brings me great comfort. . i carry her and all the softer parts of myself into these next six months, ready to keep participating in all of the healing.