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I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, As long as I’m living My baby you’ll be. ⭐️ Happy Birthday, Calvin. We love you more than all the stars in the sky.

1 Week Oh my, how quickly the time passes. We have been enjoying the sweet daze of endless newborn snuggles. Lane has been a wonderful sleeper & easy to soothe so far. He makes the most adorable little noises & expressions in his sleep, and he loves being cuddled. It is a magical moment when he does wake up for us though, and looks back at us with his beautiful eyes. We can’t help but spend all our time gazing at him, even when we should be resting ourselves. We are just so in love with him, it’s incredible that we get to be his parents. Sometimes we catch a glimpse of Calvin in his features, it is neat and strange to see the sibling similarities. Makes me wonder even more about what we lost. Lane is so much his own little person that I can’t possibly imagine him as Calvin, and so the thought of what might have been still evades me. I wish for both my boys, and it is heartbreaking to know that we will get to see one grow up, but not the other. One I hold in my arms, and one I will forever hold in my heart. ⭐️

We are so happy to announce our rainbow baby due in November! After losing our baby this past January, finding out we were pregnant again wasn’t the same as it was with the others.. pregnancy after loss changed how I felt.. I felt happy, but scared that it could happen again, I found myself saying “if everything goes okay we will...” I didn’t want to share our happy news until I knew everything would be okay, but I felt sad not celebrating this happy moment.. At our first appt, baby looked great, heartbeat was great, but finding out I have a very small hemorrhage just brought all my worrying back. I’m still scared, still worried, but I decided I am not going to let this take our happiness away.. We are going to love this moment, and celebrate our new baby! . @pregnancyafterlosssupport . . #thebabycenter #thebump #myformerbump #mothershape #rookiemoms #mom #momlife #momblogger #blogger #bloglife #pregnant #babybump #baby #maternity #pregnancy #everydaykayblog #sharetheeverymom #ollieannouncement #babyprepping #motherhoodsimplified #pregnantandperfect #stylishbump #mothershape #thisismotherhood #teammotherly #pregnancyafterlosssupport #pals #parentsIRL @parents #sharetheeverymom @theeverymom @theollieworld #mothershape @maternity #hodaandjenna #todayshow

I carry your heart with me. I carry it in my heart. I am never without it. Anywhere I go you go, my dear. -E.E. Cummings : @nicmarriee

Rainbow babies don't erase our trauma. In many ways, pregnancy after loss is incredibly triggering, and it reveals the hidden, unhealed pieces of ourselves. In preparing mentally and emotionally for this birth, I realized I was holding fear inside, a concept I was fighting against internally and was scared to admit to myself, because I thought that admitting it would make it come true. But it was already there. Once I muttered the words, "I'm scared" aloud to myself in the safety of my shower, I immediately shed tears, and I knew it was true, something my body yearned for me to accept without judgment so I could address it head-on. I deserve it, and my baby deserves it, too. Preparing for birth after experiencing past birth trauma and neonatal loss is going to bring up fears, it just is. Being pregnant after experiencing miscarriage or still birth will stir up fear and trauma. These truths are already there, whether we want to admit them or not. The work is in learning how to accept these truths without judgment and in doing what we can do to address them appropriately. The work is in vulnerability. For me, that looks like diving back into trauma therapy after thinking I was done with it. In order for me to get there, to get the targeted help I really needed, I first had to be truthful with myself so I could then be truthful with the person I appointed to help me work through it. Rainbow babies aren't all sunshine and rainbows, because their pregnancies require work, effort, and intention. Rainbow babies aren't all sunshine and rainbows, because sometimes they end in tragedy, too. Rainbow babies aren't all sunshine and rainbows, because life isn't all sunshine and rainbows. We need to stop pretending it is so we can readily accept our own and one another's truth without judgment.

Pregnancy after loss feels a lot like a silhouette. While looking like every other pregnant woman, there’s a dark truth behind the round shape. You are not like every other pregnant woman. The joy and innocence of this time has been stripped away and in its place, fear and anxiety exist. Doubt-filled thoughts and the terrifying what if scenarios play through your mind on repeat. Moments of bliss for the new life appear, but are followed closely by reminders of the life lost and sorely missed. Every day feels like a battle between the light and the dark. ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Next to the Ruby-sized hole in my heart, there is a growing space for her brother. A space that is cherished and overflowing with love. A space that, in all honesty, probably would not exist if his sister were still with us... but a space that only he is meant to fill. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Amidst the whirlwind of emotions and in this moment, I choose the light. I choose to ignore the darkness of fear, doubt and anxiety and instead, focus on the light surrounding us. There is so much love, hope and prayers being sent our way. So many are excitedly waiting to celebrate with us next month. And I know Ruby is watching over her brother while sweetly reminding us of her ever-existing presence. These hope-filled reminders, truths and baby kicks are what help us win the battle today ❤️ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #pregnancyafterloss #pregnancyafterlosssupport #PALAwareness #PALSupport #PALAwarenessMonth #rainbowbaby #rainbowmom : @somethingmorephotos

We got to meet Levi face-to-face on Monday He was born after a fast and furious labor, barely giving me time to feel emotional or anything beyond exhaustion and shock. I've just been so intoxicated by him and filled with love and joy, and I know his big brother Henry is right there with him. The grief is there as it's always been, as are the fears and what-ifs and anxiety, but the joy and love I have been feeling so deeply must be a gift planted within my heart from Henry as we transition into this new chapter.

Sending out good vibes and lots of hugs. 2019 please be our year.

Bringing our rainbow baby home With every day that we were stuck in hospital the fear increased... from taking 4 days to be induced, our dreams of holding our baby were so close and yet the carrot kept being dangled and pulled away “you have 4 people in front of you” became “you have one in front of you” and then “your next” but other ladies kept going before me due to medical reasons. I had to keep telling myself they aren’t taking me because everything is fine with my baby but in my mind all I could think of was that the dreams of going home with a baby kept being pulled away and the memories of not going home with Daksh kept creeping in my mind. On the 13th October at 7:03pm we finally held our beautiful baby for the first time!! He had 24 hour observation in hospital due to antibiotics that were given to me during labour for Group B Strep and then we were about to be discharged the next day. Nitin arrived with the car seat and we were about to come home but as the midwife prepared our notes she noticed his temperature that was taken 2 hours ago was slightly high and the doctors advised us to stay for another 24 hours. Suddenly there was something potentially wrong with our baby and we couldn’t take him home Thankfully temperature was fine for the next 24 hours however before we were going home Nitin noticed the whites of his eyes were slightly yellow. The midwife said it doesn’t look that bad but they still did a blood test to be sure. Results showed he had jaundice and they would need to start phototherapy immediately. We were staying the night again.. he was placed under a UV light with only his nappy on for 36 hours and then after switching it off a blood test would be done 12 hours later to clear him for discharge. Another 2 days had passed. The blood test was done at 6:30pm enough time to be discharged before the evening however at 10pm the midwife came to tell me the sample clotted and it would have to be repeated Emotions we’re running so high. Why couldn’t we take our baby home, the fear kept creeping in even though we knew we were in good hands in the hospital. (Continued in comments) #babydakshpatel