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I completely lost myself after I became a mother.
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I felt like I was on autopilot and I was just watching my entire awareness of self descend slowly into completely unrecognisable territory.
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My thought process was a dangerous one and bipolar disorder, severe PND and depression had taken a tight grip on me and obliterated any happiness or confidence that I dared to allow myself to feel.
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I hated me.
I fucking hated being me!
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I was disgusted in how little I cared about myself and my inner voice was constantly belittling me and throwing a barrage of insults at my reflection staring back at me in the mirror....
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‘Don’t wear that you can see how big your hips and thighs really are’
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‘You don’t have the right to feel good today’
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‘Your butt is way too big for those jeans’
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‘No one is fooled by the high waist, people can see it’s all held in by them’
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These are just some of messed up and self destructive lies the old me would have whispered in my ear, picking me to pieces until I finally went and got changed or didn’t leave the house at all. I felt trapped in every sense of the word.
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It took more soul searching, a horrific break up, the sudden and life changing death of my beautiful soul mate Adam and years of teaching myself how to drown that insidious voice out before I rediscovered my better self and really started to appreciate that I was more than just a mum living ONLY for her children. .
I am a strong and independent woman.
I am a writer.
I am a business owner.
I am a friend.
I am a daughter and a sister and an Aunty.
I am a Beautifully flawed human.
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I am a person entirely capable of loving myself as well as being a fucking awesome mama bear.
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I now know that the old me was just an insecure and judgemental bitch and I kicked her right out of my head, she doesn’t get to live here anymore....
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Bye Felicia!
When I took this picture however many years ago I said to myself, “one day I’m going to live here” and now I do. Moving to San Francisco for work has been an amazing, but also overwhelming experience. Today was one of those days where it got a little overwhelming and I felt a bit homesick for LA (where I was born and raised). I miss my bed there (and my pillow, oh my god— I should really bring it up with me), my friends and family, and that sense of belonging that I haven’t yet found here. This is also the first time I’ve worked since my psychosis and subsequent nerve injury three years ago. I’ve been working for six months here while managing my disability/recovery and it hasn’t been easy. But it’s also been extremely rewarding and I’m very proud of myself so while I’m here I’m going to make the most of it. I’m doing my best and I guess that’s what matters most, right?
Which swing is it gonna be this time yo
(Credit: @dsmeme5 )
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Excuse my absence! Bipolar disorder has been kicking my butt these past few weeks. It’s staring to get better so hopefully I’ll be back to the usual posting soon! Take care!
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