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I wasn't given a choice it's something I HAVE to do... learn each day how to survive without you #survival #learning #eachday #grieffaithhope #lossofachild #loss #childloss #childreninheaven #mamagrief #griefandloss #griefrollercoaster #grievingparents #griefprocess #griefattacks #griefquotes #grieving #losingachild #momofanangel
A biker pedaling towards paradise.
I’m in denial.
I miss you till I’m hopeless.
Then I hope...
one day I’ll hold your hand and you’ll hold mine right back.
#PedalOn
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I will never get over the loss of my Son, it's a part of me, it's my life now. Until we meet again my Son, Always on my Mind Forever in my Heart #life #lifequotes #lifelessons #lifesajourney #lifestoshort #lossofachild #loss #childloss #childreninheaven #grieffaithhope #grief #griefisreal #faith #faithoverfear #hope #holdingontohope #untilwemeetagain #grievingparents #grievingmomsforever #mamagrief #griefprocess
Grief is never ending, because love never ends. Walking through it can be very lonely, as many will misunderstand your journey. I am five and a half years in to navigating life without my first born son. I still cry, but not every day. There are still days I can’t muster the strength to get out of bed, but they’re less and less. I think about him every single day, and I walk my journey - one step at a time. Sometimes I can only take baby steps, while other days I am speed walking through life. However, there are still times that knock me off my feet. Yet, I get up. I DECIDE to stand. And, then I begin again - putting one foot in front of the other. This doesn’t make me stuck. This doesn’t mean I’m struggling in my grief. This is just the life of a mother who will always miss her boy. I’ll always talk about him because he is mine and I am his. His absence from this world doesn’t negate his profound presence that deeply impacted my life and the lives of so many. I love, love, love my boy; and I’m journeying towards him - one step at a tome.
I’ve never been ok with goodbye. I don’t think I ever will be.
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I’ve always struggled with loss of any kind.
And well after losing my parents and my daughter Chloe, I’ve learned that grief brings repetition...
Grief brings pain when you least expect it. No warning. No preparation.
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Then all of a sudden, you think you are ok. You’ve made it and then grief will seep into your day and moment. Inching the reality that you feel as if you keep reliving the worst goodbye. In fact you didn’t ever realize that was goodbye. You replay each moment, searching for the one moment that you can hold onto. To ensure you did and said everything you wanted. Instead you are only left with the love that remains and you pray that your loved one can hear you from there, while you State it here. You wonder if they have access to Social Media or your unspoken thoughts of all the what if’s, could haves and Should’ve’s.
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Another day comes and you believe this is the day of your life after loss and then grief comes and takes it over like a unwanted travel guide and again you go to the goodbye all over again. Bargaining and begging God that this is only a unwanted nightmare but instead you look in the mirror and recognize the stranger looking back at you is confirmation that this is your reality. The grief is there and your loved one is no longer. This is grief and loss.
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Do what you need to get through and know you feel what you feel. This is your goodbye. And this is your grief, not his and not hers. Only yours. Soothe your heart with only loving yourself and knowing that this is the worst and many impossible days ahead and beyond.
My love and my grace always!
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We may look the same, but inside we are changed. How do we explain these differences to others? How do we fit our “new” selves into our “old” lives? I think the first step is acceptance that the changes that come from the loss of a loved one are natural and expected. Whether anyone else sees how we are different should not affect our seeing it and accepting it in ourselves
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Relationships don’t end with death—otherwise we wouldn’t grieve or mourn in the days, months, years ahead. Relationships can be positive or negative, close or distant, but only if there is neutrality and a not-knowing can we say a relationship does not exist between two people. We are still deeply emotionally and spiritually connected to the person we’ve lost despite their physical absence. This is what makes death of a loved one so painful and so disorienting. Yet maybe we will be able to be with them again someday, somehow. For this, for us who grieve, I dare to hope.
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These thoughts come out of the beginning stages of a public workshop on grief that I’m creating. Stay tuned friends ♥️
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Words adapted from a song by John Lucas.