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All the feels papa!
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Our family is so excited to announce that we are expecting baby #2 after 3 years of trying and never giving up hope! After the loss of our identical twins at only 10 weeks, it was extremely difficult for my wife and I to move forward. We were scared and confused. What if it happened again? What if we never got pregnant again? I remembered we shared that taboo topic with friends and had received so much support from people who had experienced a miscarriage in the past. Their stories were inspiring, uplifting and encouraging. We weren't alone in this world. We held on to that. Months passed and nothing was happening. We questioned each other. Then, our son had some questions too. Mommy, Daddy, can I get a little brother or sister? But little did he know, we have been trying and trying. Any hint of pregnancy, my wife bought another First Response Pregnancy Test. We desperately wanted another baby. At one point, we said to each other, maybe we're only suppose to have one child. January 2019, while I was on a video call with my illustrator to discuss my next children's book, my wife whispered my name. I looked. She was shaking, in tears, holding one of the many pregnancy tests. I already knew what that meant. "Are you fking serious?" I cried, squeezing her tightly before looking at the results. She was pregnant with our baby. For the past few weeks, we kept it a secret because we had to be sure this time. Today, we had our 12 week ultrasound check up and the doctor told us that our baby is looking great. We are content and excited for this new journey. October 10th 2019, we can't wait to meet our baby girl or baby boy. #dadlife #daddy #rainbowbaby #fatherhood #blackfathers #yyc #calgary
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I’m so excited to have gotten pregnant again, but it’s so so so riddled with fear.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Today, my doctor’s office called to give me an update on my blood test from this morning, but I missed the call. The nurse left a message to call her back, and I was convinced this meant bad news.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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It wasn’t bad news - my HCG doubled as expected and my progesterone is good.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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But the fear is still there and I think it will be for the next 8+ months. Seeing the heartbeat won’t even stop the worry - we saw the heartbeat on two different occasions last time.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I’m really trying to live in the moment. Today, everything is good.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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☀️Happy 2nd birthday Sundance James ☀️.
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Oh sweet, perfect, beautiful boy, I hope you know how very loved and missed you are today and everyday. The weight of your absence is felt daily, but days like today are even harder to get through without you. I wish you were here running around with your siblings, wearing cowboy boots celebrating. I hope you and River are celebrating and loving on each other, wherever you are ❤️ What I wouldn’t give to get to snuggle and kiss you one more time. I carried you for every moment of your life, and I will love you for every moment of mine!
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I’ve never shared this photo before. I have very few of Sundance. Look at that teeny tiny nose and that crease on his chin
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Mother’s Day, March 26th 2017. This was a perfect day. My heart was full, as were my arms. This snapshot is the most beautiful moment in time. I had just fed Leighton off to sleep and off in the distance Joshua was exploring a park with Chris & family.
It was a perfect day. Absolutely perfect. I’m so grateful for these memories, these moments my brain won’t ever forget. Forever thankful for Leighton’s presence and the time he gave us.
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I don’t know how else to describe how my life changed the moment my son died. The world became a very different place for me... reality, as I experienced it, changed as if I saw behind the “curtain” like Dorthy in the Wizard of Oz; some of the things that I thought were real and important proved to be trivial and insignificant; the truth of life and why we are here on this earth slowly came into focus. Love... spiritual growth... honesty... connection to others... those are real and meaningful in this world. I saw, the day he died, the things we surround ourselves with and accumulate over our lifetime are left behind when we die... what we gain spiritually moves on with us. I live with my heart in heaven and my feet on the ground... and from this view, I see the importance of love
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I am gonna be a Big brother !
My parents are expecting their rainbow baby August 2019 We know our Jace is watching over his new little brother ❤️
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We get asked all the time what our next steps are and I honestly just haven’t known until now. After a year+ break, I finally somehow mustered up enough courage to schedule & go to a follow up appointment with my new Fertility Dr. I’ve been a mess leading up to this appointment, but it went better than I anticipated. We are working on future plans for my 4th round of IVF. I have a thousand different emotions, but trying to keep Hope at the top & fear at the bottom. As always, all our trust is in God & whatever His plan is for us. I know it’s going to be really hard for me to do IVF again, but I just can’t give up. Please keep us in your prayers because Heaven knows we will need them☺️❤️ #prayingforbabyward
Eight months of missing you & eight months of wishing you were back in my arms. Oh, how we love you sweet baby girl & we can’t WAIT until we get to be reunited with you again...but until then, we miss you yesterday, today, & forever! There isn’t a day that goes by that we don’t think of you & say your name. #kinleyeveduckworth
Our second pregnancy loss has turned me into the green-eyed monster and it freaking sucks. I feel like everywhere I go, there is a pregnant woman or a family with small children and everyone looks so happy. I often wonder if that’s just how it looks through my eyes and in reality the toddler was throwing a fit, the pregnant woman was worrying about her scan coming up, maybe the couple was even arguing in public. Through my eyes, those people have everything that I want and I’m insanely jealous.
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Honestly, I’m a little embarrassed to even admit these feelings to the world but at the same time, I need to put a face on this feeling and not ignore that I’m struggling with it because chances are, someone reading this and looking at this photo is struggling with jealousy too. I mean, it’s natural to be jealous when someone has what you want sooo badly. And of course in your head, they got it easily and their life is perfect. Why wouldn’t we think like that?
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Before our second loss, I never struggled this much with triggers. Pregnant women, ultrasounds, pregnancy announcements, didn’t bother me. I could handle it. But now, all of that could easily bring me to tears and it’s miserable to live in a world where it seems that everyone is pregnant, everyone is thriving, everyone is happy and you are left with nothing but a pregnancy test that reads “pregnant” even though you aren’t. The reality of this jealousy is sad. It sucks. It’s unfair. It has “why me” written all over it but I really really really don’t want to feel this way. ✨
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I always say that one day this will all make sense and we will understand why our journey wasn’t as easy as it seems to be for others but I’m truthfully, wondering how much longer we will have to go through this. We are coming up on two years of trying and if I knew what was in store for us, I would never believe it. Maybe this jealousy will get easier to manage. Maybe the sight of a pregnant woman won’t make me look down at my feet so I don’t stare. Maybe a year from now, everything will be so different.
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If you feel the way I feel, please know you aren’t alone.