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♥ You're happy one minute and in incredible pain the next. All I had was tunnel vision followed by the most intense pain and hole in my heart.
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Somewhere along the line we are told that we shouldn’t miss those who aren’t here, that we should move on, dust ourselves off, and smile through the pain. The truth is we are allowed to miss them forever. We are supposed to hurt, we are created to weep, and we have every right to scream ‘this hurts’. (Zoe Clark-Coates) @zoeadelle
#captureyourgrief2018 day 9. Transformed. Of course this experience changed me as a person. How could it not? It is not possible for your heart to break and leave you intact and untouched. You'd think my heart broke the day Finley died, but it didn't. Those first couple of days my default state was frozen numbness. Default learnt after years of trauma. That protective numbing sensation meant I could do what needed to be done , had the space to think. To think about what we needed as a family, to think about what others might do in this situation.
The heart break captured in this photo happened when I was told I'd need to leave the hospital and asked what I wanted my last memory to be. The moment I admitted that I just wanted to change his nappy, my heart shattered.
It's impossible not to be transformed. Oh I tried hard to collect up the remnants of the old me. but they remained stubbornly behind the wall that separated Before from After.
I don't like change. It's not comfortable or predictable. And life as we knew it changed overnight.
I couldn't find my way back to that old life. So I was transformed.
But it never felt like I was a new me. I felt like I was suddenly able to be more me than ever before. I didn't have time or space or energy to pretend or hide away anymore.
I discovered my reason for being.
Thanks to Finley I could stand tall in a crowd of people and share my story. Thanks to Finley this shy woman could speak on radio and appear on TV, could move people to tears with words on a screen, words in a book and words they listened to. I found a new dream.
And he changed me as a mum,in ways I'm not so proud of. Every day I was plagued by worries about how and when my daughter would die. Ordinary trips became hazardous life threatening activities because of PTSD. Crippling anxiety meant that just meeting another mum felt like climbing Everest.
But the experience also meant that I found magic in the mundane. A walk in the woods or a paddle in the river with my daughter became a fairy hunting trip,my heart finding Finley in the shards of sunlight.
Hopefully our loss will help others. Thankful to @jordan__kimball and the Citrus County Chronicle for telling Anna’s story and helping #breakthesilence of #stillbirth. Read about our upcoming 5K to raise awareness and support by clicking our link in profile.
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Because sometimes I just need the world to see a picture of you I haven’t shared before ... something new. Otis ft. Blue Bear and Roo These two teddies have kept Otis company from the moment he was born - for the 56 hours we spent with him in the hospital; the further 5 days he spent resting in the funeral home; and every day since, as he was buried cuddling one under each arm. What a gang Wherever they go, and whatever happens to them on the way, in that enchanted place on top of the forest, a little boy and his bear will always be playing
Tomorrow (January 18, 2019) will be my son DJ’s 3rd Heavenly Birthday. I cannot believe it has almost been three years since I last saw the face of my precious munchkin. I can still recall the days leading up to my delivery like yesterday . I was crushed that my sons life began and ended in the hospital over a span of hours. I was devastated that I would have to be wheeled out of the hospital with empty arms. This quote rings so true. Giving DJ back was so hard . It still is . I miss him every day, and will continue to do so until I see him again. But one thing for sure is he has given my life purpose, he has helped me grow in ways that I couldn’t imagine, and he dwells in my heart!
One of my favorite custom paintings ever, done for one of my favorite clients ever.
Amanda lost her baby girl Juniper at full term just this past August. As we got to know each other, I was constantly inspired by how beautifully she remembers and honors her sweet girl, and by what a kind, awesome person she is. Since Amanda would never get the chance to see Junie with her dog, Penny, she came up with the idea for this painting. And I could not love it more. Your mom loves you SO much, Junie girl.