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It’s been several months since I’ve written a blog post. Actually since finding out I was pregnant for the 4th time to be exact. The first trimester I was in survival mode, hoping and waiting for each day to pass and make it to the next one without miscarrying. As the days and weeks went on and I reached second trimester and was no longer a high risk pregnancy I doubted that God would continue using my story. Why would someone who just lost her baby want to hear from a pregnant woman? But even while I’ve shared our pregnancy journey on social media I still hear from women wanting and needing encouragement and resources. The last two weeks specifically I’ve been talking with 4 women who recently lost their babies to miscarriage. Even though I’m pregnant, God is not done using our story and our experience to help others and give Him glory. So putting it all out here is some built in accountability to continue sharing our story no matter how many heavenly or earthly babies I have. I’ve felt a heaviness and sadness this last week on top of hearing the devastating news above from friends. And then it hit me Monday morning while staring blankly at my calendar- it’s June. I’ve lost two babies in June. Tomorrow is the 1st anniversary of finding out we lost Emily, and June 21st is the 2nd anniversary since losing Levi. I have two baby showers this month to celebrate and prepare for our little girl coming soon so it is a very joyous and exciting month, but I’m also remembering two angel babies that never had the chance to take their first breath. As I reflect back on my experiences the last two Junes, I’m finally ready to share the story of each baby. I’ve had the story of Lily, our first angel baby, written out since last year. Why haven’t I shared that yet? I’m not entirely sure besides it just wasn’t the right timing. So TOMORROW I’ll be sharing the story of Lily on my blog, and before baby g #4 arrives, I’ll share the others. Thank you for being on this journey with us and creating a space for me to share vulnerably. : @kristinaseeber.jpg . . . #miscarriagemomma #miscarriagematters #miscarriageawareness #angelbabies #multiplemiscarriages #induetime

Today, we were shopping and I saw a toddler shirt that said “Big Sister” and I wanted to cry. My girl is two next month and I so wanted her to have a sibling close in age. Now, we have no idea if she’ll ever be a big sister.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It’s so hard to long for something that you’re not sure you’re going to be able to have.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I just want a baby.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It sounds so simple, and I used to think it was. My first pregnancy was a piece of cake. I thought the next one would be, too.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ We bought the minivan and the double stroller in anticipation of completing our family.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Then we had two miscarriages.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Even through the pain we’ve gone through, I am still longing for my last baby, just the same.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #angelbaby⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #babylosscommunity⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #earlymiscarriage⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #iam1in4⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #lifeafterloss⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #miscarriage⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #miscarriagehurts⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #miscarriagerecovery⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #miscarriagesupport⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #pregnancyaftermiscarriage⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #rainbowbaby⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #tryingtoconceiveaftermiscarriage⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #ttccommunity⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #1in4⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #babyloss⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #breakthesilence⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #grievingmother⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #ihadamiscarriage⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #managingmiscarriage⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #miscarriageblog⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #miscarriagematters⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #miscarriagesucks⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #mynewnormal⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #pregnancylossjourney⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #tryingtoconceiveafterloss⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #ttcaftermiscarriage⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #ttcsupport⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #recurrentmiscarriage

If 20% of all pregnancies end in loss, why does it feel like not a single soul understands? Why does it feel like no one can relate? Or as though providers have never comforted someone that’s experiencing loss? These are questions I’ve asked myself as I lived through loss after loss. I wanted to talk about this so that women don’t feel the way I felt, and know that they can be supported! 〰️ Those who experience loss are at increased risk for PTSD, OCD, and anxiety symptoms (especially during subsequent pregnancies). It’s so important to recognize this and get connected with resources. Family and friends can be supportive, but sometimes it’s more helpful to have a community of people that have lived through it and can offer empathy. 〰️ If you’ve experienced loss, I stand with you. I recognize your pain. I hope to encourage others to not minimize that pain or brush it aside. I also want to provide some resources 〰️ www.handonline.org www.mend.org www.resolve.org . . You can also go to postpartum.net and find local support groups and/or providers for treatment.

There has been an abundance of women opening up on social media and in the press about their experiences with miscarriage and fertility. It’s heartening to see that the pain and tears associated with these struggles are becoming easier to talk about. But not everyone has the same experience when they have a miscarriage. I know because I had a miscarriage earlier this year when I was 9 weeks pregnant. ⠀ ⠀ Would you believe me if I told you I didn’t shed a single tear when I found out? Don’t get me wrong, I was sad​, I just didn’t cry. I’m embarrassed to say it which is why I don’t like sharing my miscarriage story. Not because it’s an uncomfortable topic, but rather, I feel ​judged f​or responding the way I did. ⠀ ⠀ I’m afraid that if I tell people my story they will view me as cold and heartless and think less of me as a mother and as a woman. But here I am telling you now so you can understand why I reacted the way I did.⠀ ⠀ Read the rest of the blog post- link in bio. ⠀ ⠀ ⠀

Today would have been your announcement day. I couldn’t wait to tell my friends + family about you. I had already started planning + pinning different announcement ideas. You will never know how excited I truly was when we found out about you. ⋒ I opened my planner to this week the other day + saw where I wrote “12 weeks” on today’s date - the so-called safe zone. The 2nd trimester. I quickly scribbled it out. I didn’t want the reminder of what I had lost every time I opened my planner to schedule another meeting or interview. But even underneath the scribbled lines it’s still there + it’s still a reminder of you. ⋒ I still blame myself. I still think that if I didn’t move to quickly whether it was ordering your bassinet or making a secret board on Pinterest or writing down the weeks well in advance that I somehow could have saved you. I know that none of those had anything to do with your loss but it’s something I can’t help but think on a daily basis. ⋒ I wish you would have met your brothers who would have loved you so much. And had the chance to lay across your papas belly. I wish that you could have known what it would have felt like to have me run my fingers through your hair + to feel the scruff of your dads cheek against yours. I wish so many things for you little one. ⋒ I’ll never stop missing you, loving you, or thinking about you. Ever. #iamoneinfour #ihadamiscarriage

⚠️DO NOT COMMENT IF YOU DO NOT READ THE CAPTION⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️ • I had a Dr appointment yesterday at 1030 for an ultrasound. After 8 exhausting + disappointing months of TTC it FINALLY happened for us. When I realized I was 4 days late, I took my first pregnancy test. That was Feb 12th. I took 2 more test a few days after because I had to be sure (yes - I know there’s no such thing as a false positive) + scheduled an appointment with my OB for the following week. • My first ultrasound had me measuring at 5 weeks (right where I thought I was) but no heartbeat. They told me it’s common to not find a heart beat that early + scheduled me another US for the next week. Yesterday. Yesterday I became 1 in 4 women who suffer from a miscarriage. • I was so naive to think this could never happen to me. I’ve carried two beautiful, healthy boys to term so what did I do wrong this time? Was it because I let Cohen crawl over my belly or pick him up every time he reached for me? Is it because I told one too many people because I can’t keep a straight face when asked if I was pregnant? Is it because I splurged & bought this Moses basket too soon? Did I want this too badly? Am I being punished? Why was our baby the one who had to leave us too soon? The baby I have begged, prayed, pleaded, yearned for every-single-day for eight months. The baby we want so badly. • These are all the things running through my head. My heart is shattered. I’m angry at my body - at the world. And I’m sharing this today because I know there is another woman out there suffering in silence. She’s feeling everything I’m feeling right now. She’s angry, ashamed, heartbroken, feeling abandoned, + alone. • I almost didn’t share this. Honestly, I’m terrified to share this. Part of me wants to suffer in silence. Part of me needs to write this out so I can start trying to heal. Part of me wants to throw my phone against the wall + scream until I lose my voice. But a bigger part of me wants other women to know they’re not alone. #iamoneinfour #ihadamiscarriage

EDIT: There have been a lot of questions below, so I thought I would add a couple more tmi details - We have made an appointment for Monday for a follow-up ultrasound, just in case I have not miscarried by then on my own. In the meantime, I’m going to continue to take the progesterone. Just in case. But are coming to terms with the likely outcome. We are satisfied at this point that we have done and are continuing to do everything in our power to get the best outcome. I took these pregnancy tests on Friday and Sunday. We were desperately trying to prove that there was a growing baby inside there. That the doctors must be jumping the gun since they couldn’t see anything on the ultrasound. Unfortunately, the nurse called me back with my second HCG tests this afternoon (from yesterday morning). My HCG levels barely went up from Saturday morning. They should have doubled or done more than what they did at the very least. We have accepted that this pregnancy is going to end without a baby. My husband and I have done countless hours of research to try and find a single ray of hope, but there doesn’t appear to be one. So at this point, we are preparing for a miscarriage. Thank you all for everything you’ve done for me. You’re the absolute best. ♥️ #angelmom #babylossmamas #fertilityjourney #iamamothertoanangel #lifeaftermiscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagemama #miscarriagestory #miscarriagesurvivor #pregnancyinfantlossawareness #tryingtoconceive #ttc #ttcjourney #1in4 #babyloss #breakthesilence #grievingmother #ihadamiscarriage #managingmiscarriage #miscarriageblog #miscarriagematters #miscarriagesucks #mynewnormal #pregnancylossjourney #tryingtoconceiveafterloss #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcsupport

I get messages almost every day from other grieving mommas. And they break my heart. So many people feel like they have to grieve their miscarriage alone and that’s so incredibly sad to me. I was so lucky that when my miscarriage happened back in January, I already had this account and had seen so many brave women share their story. I knew there was a community of women out there that support one another. And the support I have been given has been out of this world. But if you’re suffering from a miscarriage, please know that there are many of us who have gone through it and we’re here for you. Other people might not get it, but we do. ♥️ #1in4 #babyloss #breakthesilence #grievingmother #ihadamiscarriage #managingmiscarriage #miscarriageblog #miscarriagematters #miscarriagesucks #mynewnormal #pregnancylossjourney #tryingtoconceiveafterloss #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcsupport #angelmom #babylossmamas #fertilityjourney #iamamothertoanangel #lifeaftermiscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagemama #miscarriagestory #miscarriagesurvivor #pregnancyinfantlossawareness #tryingtoconceive #ttc #ttcjourney

⚠️DO NOT COMMENT IF YOU DO NOT READ THE CAPTION⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️ • You were just starting to show yourself little one. On the day I found out, I opted for a D&C but after 24 hours + finally being able to think a bit more clearly I decided to let this process happen naturally. It started on Saturday + all I could do was shake. I’m not ready to say goodbye. I don’t want this to be our truth. I want this to be a nightmare that I’m having a hard time waking up from. I don’t want to be one in four. • I knew instantly something was wrong that day while getting the ultrasound. The tech never showed me the screen, never turned the heartbeat on for me to hear, never hit print to hand me a glimpse of my little love. She told me to get dressed + she would be back + that’s when I started to pray harder than I have ever prayed before. After several minutes (more like an eternity) of waiting, I walked into the hall + asked if I was done. She told me she was waiting on my OB. Right then-that moment-I knew. I knew our baby was gone. I had done this twice before - I knew what to expect from that first ultrasound. I couldn’t contain my tears. I couldn’t hold back my anguish. I had to leave through the side door to avoid the lobby. I screamed + cried in my car for half an hour before I could drive home. I had to tell my husband we were losing our baby. Our baby we tried so damn hard for. • We may never have gotten to meet you but we loved you so much from the moment we found out about you. We wanted you so badly. You weren’t just cells - you were a piece of me + a piece of your dad brought together + created out of love. You’ll forever be in our hearts. You’ll forever be a piece of us. • I didn’t think this would be as hard as it is. Emotionally, it’s a pain unlike no other. How can I be so broken about someone I’ve never met? How can I miss them so much? I didn’t realize I would grieve like this; how truly hard a miscarriage is. Never being able to hear your heartbeat or see the silhouette of your little face - never truly knowing who you would have been is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. #ihadamiscarriage #iamoneinfour